Top Boy star Ashley Walters admits he 'drank excessively' to cope with his depression after being released from prison for carrying a gun
- Top Boy’s Ashley Walters, 37, admitted he suffered with depression after prison
- He drank excessively to cope as he didn't feel he could open up about feelings
- Woke up on bus with no memory, having been robbed of shoes, wallet and phone
Top Boy’s Ashley Walters admitted that he drank excessively to cope with his depression after leaving prison, as he didn't feel able to speak about his feelings.
The 37-year-old actor, originally from Peckham, London, revealed that he knew he 'needed to get help' when he woke up after a black out on a London bus, having been robbed of his shoes, phone and wallet.
In 2002 the actor, who plays Dushane in the hit Netflix series, was arrested and jailed for 18-months for carrying a loaded air pistol, which had been modified to fire live ammunition.
Speaking on Adwoa Aboah's The Gurl Talk podcast, he revealed that after leaving prison, he felt the world had 'moved on without him' and he struggled to cope with his mental health, becoming 'abusive' to those he loved.
Top Boy’s Ashley Walters,37, from Peckham, London,admitted that he drank excessively to cope with his depression after leaving prison
The star - who plays Dushane in the hit Netflix series - revealed that he knew he 'needed to get help' when he woke up after a black out on a London bus, having been robbed of his shoes, phone and wallet
He said: 'I felt like as a man, I didn't want to believe there was something wrong with me.
'I came out (of prison) and the things that were happening and the way I was acting, I kind of attributed them to me being upset, me being slightly angry, but in hindsight I realise I was suffering with depression.
'When I was released from prison, I didn't want to leave my house for the first three months. I stayed inside and at the time I just felt like I didn't face people.
'I didn't want to talk about what had happened and I just felt like I had a lot of catching up to do, because when you're in that scenario - your world stays the same and everybody else's world keeps on moving. You feel behind, you feel left out, you feel lonely. '
The star told of how he drank to cope with his feelings, and how his wife Danielle Isaie (pictured left) was able to help him recover
The former So Solid Crew member went on to tell that he found himself 'segregating' himself from friends and family, and became 'flippant and angry'.
He said: 'I realised that I was segregating myself from people, staying in my house led to me eventually losing friends and kind of it's slightly being abusive to people that I loved and cared about.
'Being really flippant, angry so it was at that point I realised I needed to talk to someone.'
The former So Solid Crew member was arrested and, and jailed for 18-months for carrying a loaded air pistol in 2002
The star told of how he drank to cope with his feelings, and how his wife Danielle Isaie was able to help him recover.
When asked who it was that Ashley finally opened up to, he replied: 'I think it was my wife.
'I had a really bad month, I think, for me and not many people know this I'm going to speak frankly now, but to get through it, to get around it I drank.'
He went on to remember an evening where he drank so excessively, he completely blacked out, and was asked to leave the bus by the conductor after circulating the route while passed out, several times.
'Alcohol became a vice and something I leaned on, so I drank for a while and I was drinking excessively. One day I went out with some friends', he told.
'Cut to the next morning at 7 o'clock I was on a bus and the conductor woke me up and was like mate I can't let you go around anymore.
'I think iId been robbed, my wallet my phone was gone and I didn't have my shoes and I didn't know how I got there or what had happened.
'I walked home and when I got back my mum had called her and we sat and she held me and she said "You need to get some help.".