Lil Nas X details 'nerve-wracking' coming out conversation with his father... before revealing he was gay to the world

He became the only artist to musician to come out as gay while having a number one hit on the charts back in June.

Lil Nas X, 20, opened up about the process of coming out in his cover story for the newest issue of Billboard, published Thursday, while also delving into his musical success.

According to the Old Town Road rapper, coming out to his own father was even tougher than revealing his sexuality to the rest of the world. 

Getting real: Lil Nas X, 20, opened up about the process of coming out in his cover story for the newest issue of Billboard, published Thursday, while also delving into his musical success

Getting real: Lil Nas X, 20, opened up about the process of coming out in his cover story for the newest issue of Billboard, published Thursday, while also delving into his musical success

Lil Nas X was nonchalant about his public coming out, which he announced on June 29, first by reposting his song C7osure with new animation, which some fans had interpreted as holding clues to his sexuality.

He made his intentions more obvious the following day when he shared a closeup of the artwork from his 7 ep that included a building covered in rainbow colors and another tower adorned with double Xs.

'Just like, rip the Band-Aid off,' Nas X said about his coming out.

But coming out to his own father earlier in June was much more difficult for him, and he called the conversation 'nerve-wracking.'

Coded message: Lil Nas X was nonchalant about his public coming out, which he announced on June 29, first by reposting his song C7osure with new animation, which some fans thought held clues to his sexuality

Coded message: Lil Nas X was nonchalant about his public coming out, which he announced on June 29, first by reposting his song C7osure with new animation, which some fans thought held clues to his sexuality

Tough talk: But coming out to his own father earlier in June was much more difficult for him, and he called the conversation 'nerve-wracking'

Tough talk: But coming out to his own father earlier in June was much more difficult for him, and he called the conversation 'nerve-wracking'

'It’s something I never probably would have did if I was still living with my parents. I have that independence to do it, you know?' he explained.

Nas X (real name: Montero Lamar Hill) also opened up about his insecurities shortly after putting Old Town Road out into the world.

He described smoking plenty of marijuana and being consumed with worries before the track officially became a hit.

'I’m always thinking: What if I’m not promoting the song hard enough? What if this never goes for me?' he recalled.

'I was sick because of smoking, not sleeping because I’m always promoting my music. I was stressing so much more during that period because it was my first song to move at this height, this speed. One wrong step and it can all slip up.'

Security: 'It’s something I never probably would have did if I was still living with my parents. I have that independence to do it, you know?' he explained

Security: 'It’s something I never probably would have did if I was still living with my parents. I have that independence to do it, you know?' he explained

What gives? The rapper talked about Old Town Road being removed from the country charts while Bebe Rexha and Florida Georgia Line's Meant To Be got to stay, despite both songs featuring trap drums

What gives? The rapper talked about Old Town Road being removed from the country charts while Bebe Rexha and Florida Georgia Line's Meant To Be got to stay, despite both songs featuring trap drums

Adding to his anxieties was his originally uncleared sample of Nine Inch Nails' instrumental track 34 Ghosts IV.

After signing to Columbia Records, the label helped clear the track, which now pays 50 percent of all publishing royalties to Trent Reznor and Atticus Ross 

The rapper also talked about his decision to include a remixed version of the song that featured Billy Ray Cyrus and amped up the tracks country elements.

Though he mused about the idea only a day after releasing the track in December 2018, he was already thinking about increasing the song's country bona fides.

Lil Nas X was on to something, and Billboard removed Old Town Road from its Hot Country Songs chart after it entered the top 20.

Double standard: 'There’s definitely a problem where you can say this song is hip-hop, but you can’t say it’s country,' he said. 'It’s kind of like saying that one of these genres has more respect. Take from that what you will'

Double standard: 'There’s definitely a problem where you can say this song is hip-hop, but you can’t say it’s country,' he said. 'It’s kind of like saying that one of these genres has more respect. Take from that what you will'

'There’s definitely a problem where you can say this song is hip-hop, but you can’t say it’s country,' he said.

The Panini rapper brought up Bebe Rexha and Flordia Georgia Line's collaboration Meant To Be, which also featured trap drums but didn't encounter anywhere near the controversy Old Town Road received over its country designation.

'It’s kind of like saying that one of these genres has more respect. Take from that what you will.'

The interview concludes with some of Lil Nas X's fears of standing still as the world passes him by.

'I’m not as paranoid as I was before, but I’m still thinking if you miss too much you’re gone,' he said.

'You step away from the public eye for too long, they don’t care no more. And whenever I do step away from the internet or the music too long, it’s like I have to slowly get back into myself to get back into the groove.'

Lil Nas X says it was 'nerve-wracking' when he came out to his father before going public

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